Tired Life

I’m very very tired these days….
U know why???
Coz I’ve been 1 week long sleep at 4 in the morning….
Can u imagine how tired and headache am I???
Instead of assignment, I’m kind of hard to fall asleep…
I don’t know why but it seems like these days I really not happy and I’m in the condition of pressure and I have a bad temper….
But for the good things is that I at least can restrain the angry things and din let my bad temper spread it away….

I just want to say out my felling….
I felt like I’ve been cheating by you……
I don’t know why things will happen till like that…..
But at least can u be honest to yourself and be honest to me???
I hate my friend lying to me
That s my principal….no lying except that is a secrete…..
Instead being friend always lies and acts to each other….
You won’t be tired??
I WILL BE!!!!

I’m so disappointed to you now….
Why the same things will happen again and again???
Didn’t you just figure what is the problem with yourself??
Your attitude…..
I’m disappointed for your acting….
Your acting and changing….

I’m a little shock when I heard the news like that….
And I’m hurt too….
Everything makes me hurt deep inside my heart and haters to you
I don’t want the best condition will change to the bad…
I would like to fix everything but it seems like not my fault this time….
It’s yours…..

May I know why you want to act like that??!!!
Trying to have attention???
Or trying to own something and someone from your own friends???
Is it PRETENDING is more important that FRIENDSHIP???
Is it STRANGER is more worth than the TRUE FRIENDSHIP???
Or it’s just your act and you don’t even know about it???
You is the one who CONFUSING ME!!!!

I really tired for being go through the life like that anymore….
Really…..
Instead why I give you so many chances and it seems like…
Nothing change….
Then I shall not waste my time and vitality on you…..
I really try my best to let all the things looks good….
But….
Again and again…..
You hurt me DEEPLY and SILENTLY…..

And now,
It seems like a renounce choice left for me…
I’m HURT….I’m TIRED…..
I’m HATING….I’m CRYING…..
I’m DISAPPOINTED….
Those feeling shows that I care….
I care you as my friend….
But now,
As a friend, u just let my heart bleeding
AGAIN and AGAIN……
Is there still a gap for your breath???

~TIRED SOUL~
~JENNY~