The Truth Soul~

I don’t know how I felt now…

I’m sick, tired, exhausted, sad, hurt….

I’ve been cry for sometimes…

Coz I’ve trust everyone beside me,

But things not seems like everyone trusted you…..

Sometimes the fact will let the guess to cover it,

No one will see the fact and know about it….

People just try to guess depend on what they can think…

Lot of feeling come at once…

Can I hold it??

I’ve asked myself….

Am I tough enough to face it at the same time???

First of all I wanna to thanks to my friends….who really stand by me when I’m sad.

Thanks to you my dear Ah Fu~XD

I really touch and happy that you have been always standing with me no matter what…

All these days long, you have support me….convince me that don’t be sad….

And 1 more things, no matter what u teach me a lot of things….

I really don’t know how to say….but for me the things that you have done to me for helping me for these all way long,

It really works….

Thanks for u thousand times also no use but I also wana to say THANKS~^^

Secondly, for my dear lovely roommate Chia Wei~

I really don’t know how to say it…

But same as Ah Fu,

You have really helped me a lot…

Always listen whenever I’m sad…

How lovely you willing to spend your time to listen what I’m mourning about…

Lolx~maybe it will be boring for you coz seems like I mourn at you almost everyday..

I’m sorry about that but after talking to you it seems better for me….

Really thanks for you….

I really touch to have your friend like you….

You care about me, taking care of me….

I’ve meet a lot of friend from you….I don’t know how to say,

I really glad that you willing to share with me….

At here I wanna to say thanks and thanks again….^^

(ps: if got chance I really like to introduce my friends to you instead they din pro as ur fren or handsome….XD)

Thirdly, my lovely dear or sister also can~~XD(ps: don’t said that I’m less~)

I know these days happens a lot of things that have hurt a lot of us….

But you still stand beside me…

You know what I’m thinking,

I don’t know why, is it we both have been going through same situation at high school.

But anyway, thanks for everything…..

I know I know you sure will eat me this mushroom…

But wait, did you really will eat me this pretty mushroom???(ps: think my little cute face~)

Thanks for choosing trusting me but not pushing me….^^

Sharing the deeply secret and private things….

Thanks for willing to lend me your ear for mourn too~~XD

At last, thanks to all my BFF….

As I said you all really help me walk along this hard path…

Thanks for trusting me, helping me, whatever you all have done,

I really appreciate it a lot^^

I LOVE YOU GUYS~~

No matter what, my feeling still got affect by some stupid things….

But, I really glad and will be fine when u all stand by my side…

Cheer me up….

I swear to you all and to me….

The new me won’t let stupid things hang my feelings away~

Once again~

If I really can I would like to kiss you all~~

Hahaha~~~

Love ya guys~~~^____^

~THE TRUTH~

~Jenny Ai~

Now New

I’ve been through so many things….

So many problems that have been happen around me…

But just as usual…

I really tired to face all those problem…

I know that maybe I’m not the one who really can solve all those problems..

But I really wanna to help to solve it…

Sometimes I asking myself that why should I care what really happen?

But I sometimes I really want to fixed the problems…

Sometimes, somethings, you really can’t have a leg inside it…

Orelse there will have bad things happen….

Or maybe the you might be suffer…

Friends are being honest together and always….

But sometimes they also their private things….

Sometimes not all things that one person need to inform or tell their friends or even best friends….

Yes, let’s say being honest is a good things….

But the honest is depending on the situation….

Now let’s talk about believing…

As a friends there is a trustworthiness’ between it….

I mean not even friends, best friends also will be like that isn’t it??

If u really not trust on your friends,

Then is there still a reason to be a friend??

Just think about it…

If there is no trust between u and everyone…

What will happen in this world??

I’ve been sick for it….

Not such a same case happened to me and I’ll be afraid about it…..

I’ve been walking through it before,

And I really FEEL what it means…

Honestly, it’s really SUCKSS…

So is it I still need to let those things happen??

I don’t want coz it might be KILL one person life….

Instead I didn’t wrong why still I need to bow and felt sorry about it??

Sometimes is just not letting things go worse….

But for now??

Its just seems like I’m acting old me??

I just wanna to find my way back home….

To be MYSELF…

A new me….

This is University life,

There is no one will like their life being sucksss,

And me too,

Instead to let a small things to ruin my life???

If the same things happen to me….

As a secondary case replay it….

Then I just can say,

I’m sad to see a childish act,

And I’m sad to being a group with it….

Angry, Scolding, Teasing….

Is it all I really want??

I know I hate it….

That’s is why I don’t want have any comment on it….

And I will not and I should not explain anything….

Instead people wanna to believe then u believe it…

But if people try to ignore it….

Then I won’t try to explain all…

Instead I’m right…

I WON’T….

~THIS NOW~

~Jenny Ai~

Tired Life

I’m very very tired these days….
U know why???
Coz I’ve been 1 week long sleep at 4 in the morning….
Can u imagine how tired and headache am I???
Instead of assignment, I’m kind of hard to fall asleep…
I don’t know why but it seems like these days I really not happy and I’m in the condition of pressure and I have a bad temper….
But for the good things is that I at least can restrain the angry things and din let my bad temper spread it away….

I just want to say out my felling….
I felt like I’ve been cheating by you……
I don’t know why things will happen till like that…..
But at least can u be honest to yourself and be honest to me???
I hate my friend lying to me
That s my principal….no lying except that is a secrete…..
Instead being friend always lies and acts to each other….
You won’t be tired??
I WILL BE!!!!

I’m so disappointed to you now….
Why the same things will happen again and again???
Didn’t you just figure what is the problem with yourself??
Your attitude…..
I’m disappointed for your acting….
Your acting and changing….

I’m a little shock when I heard the news like that….
And I’m hurt too….
Everything makes me hurt deep inside my heart and haters to you
I don’t want the best condition will change to the bad…
I would like to fix everything but it seems like not my fault this time….
It’s yours…..

May I know why you want to act like that??!!!
Trying to have attention???
Or trying to own something and someone from your own friends???
Is it PRETENDING is more important that FRIENDSHIP???
Is it STRANGER is more worth than the TRUE FRIENDSHIP???
Or it’s just your act and you don’t even know about it???
You is the one who CONFUSING ME!!!!

I really tired for being go through the life like that anymore….
Really…..
Instead why I give you so many chances and it seems like…
Nothing change….
Then I shall not waste my time and vitality on you…..
I really try my best to let all the things looks good….
But….
Again and again…..
You hurt me DEEPLY and SILENTLY…..

And now,
It seems like a renounce choice left for me…
I’m HURT….I’m TIRED…..
I’m HATING….I’m CRYING…..
I’m DISAPPOINTED….
Those feeling shows that I care….
I care you as my friend….
But now,
As a friend, u just let my heart bleeding
AGAIN and AGAIN……
Is there still a gap for your breath???

~TIRED SOUL~
~JENNY~