My Heart & Soul~

Instead of I'm in love....
I know u love me...
But then I don't know how much u can pay it out...
maybe u will pay it all out...
but I'm asking myself...
how much I can sacrifice for u?
how much love I can really pay it out for u??
is there any incase for me or u?

I know that I'm the one who not supposed to simply think about...
but I can't make it...
u is so honest to me..
u told me everything about u, no matter it is good or bad...
I'll try to accpet it no matter what...
the attitude that u wana to be honest with me instead u know that maybe I'll mad at it.
but till last...
I'll still forgive...
coz I know that u need alot of courage to tell me the truth...
but then u can make it and I really appreaciate it alot...

I'm so touch when u told me that u don't want to have a lie between us...
ya..
i trust u won't lie to me
that is why I've put all my trust into u
and u promise that u won't let me down
you'll give all u have
U know how i feel when u tell me that
I'm so touch...I wana to cry
coz I know that u willing pay it out for me

for now...
I've try so long to have a wonderfull moment with u...
but...seems like there still a gap between u and me...
maybe is my problem....
but then when I found out I still don't know how to face it...
maybe there is no problem but I've make that problem out...
I really no idea what's happening to me....

before and after....
it really shows the differeces...
is the same things I've being thinking about is from before till after....
I have no idea that whether it is a problem between us or not...
but then...I mind it...and I've think alot on that...
yet, there came out another problem
jelousy...
its make me feel worst
even I know it's nothing and just friends only
but there still a jelous felling on me....

these few days I really no idea what is on my mind
just a non stop thinking for nonsense
I'm so so so sorry...
I really don't know what had happen to me
I just hope everything will be fine
and I just can keep asking myself nt to think too much....

everything will be fine right?
just it takes time isn't it?
I've give you a half me,
would you mad at me not to give the other half of my heart to you?
I'm so scare coz you are my 1st love
I scared to be hurt,being used...
and all the things was happened so fast...too fast
but then I can tell u that I din regret in anything that I've paid out.
I didn't regret in anything....
forgive me for being so selfish my dear
but I'll try my best to give a whole me to u
I promise you~
~I LOVE YOU~

~JeNnY Ai~