What Had Happen To ME??!!!

omg~
it's near final exam 2 weeks from now...
what am I actually trying to tell is....I'm doing nothing now.....
damn~every of my friends are getting working hard study...doing past year...
me??...what about me??
everyday sit infront of the laptop and watch movie...drama...
haizz~~
im totally going to die in final...

Kind of no mood to study and no mood to think for everything..
what had actually happend to me??!!
want to get good result and jelous about others?
god know what am I thinking about??
is it that is so call "lazy"??

I'm trying my best to do everything...
but now.....seem like I really want to give up...
nonono~~i don't want...I DON'T WANT!!!
what I want now?

I really don't like to get mess up with my friends....
but sometimes it seems like i can't control my own thinking...
coz i scared~
now i realize how hurt and scared when someone or your friend slowly taking away the things or friends....which it is apart of your life...haizz~silly right?
haha~kind of weired but isn't it all will be ok.....isn't it...???

maybe is the time to sit and think what I want and I deserve it...
my life is going to ruined if I continue to act like that...
will probably ruined...

thats is the bad news~
now is the GOOD news~
good news is i saw a guy yesterday....
erm~he is a guy that grab my attention away~
he's not so called handsome but 1st time i saw him~
he really a good looking guy and like a nice guy which really attract me..
wow~I mean untill now i still can remember him...
and~my memories seem like have a part of it is for him....
but anyway~I don't know who is he and just can watch him from far away...V_V
and think about him~
but it seem like he is the 1st guy really grab away my almost whole attention~^^

ps:not dare go to know each other>.<
(he is sitting beside me..haha)

~Jelous & Thinking Jenny~

ok~apart of 2009 and the end of 2008~

Ok~
Is that a disaster or just a bad luck for me?
Come on…BBQ cannot smoothly go for it, cut my finger and then my lovely beer breaks it?
Omg~I really want to faint at the countdown day!!
What a wonderful of new coming 2009

I’m kind of afraid people take all of my things away…
Like my life…my friends…my things…
So I’ll kind of hate that people
But how?
Is it that all such things will happen in our life?
Things change and your friend will turn around and get or take away the things that are apart of your life….
Or is that we just don’t care what had happened and just pretend we don’t know what had happened at all?

Now I just only know how tough and how strength we need to become a best friend and care him or her and take a knot on that friendship forever....
Its just seem like a simple to become a friend…
But how to maintain that relationship between is apart of knowledge and heart…A TRUE HEART!
How I maintain it?
I also want to know it…uhmm~maybe I’m kind of pretty? Or just be an actor that acting in apart of my stage? Or I’m just a simple girl and silly?

If I’m an actor that’s mean I’m a lousy actor that cannot hide my felling well and sometimes will cross the line of acting….
In this 2009~this brand new year~
How to maintain my best condition and how to become a best actor…
It seems like a new challenge in my new life

As I said I don’t want any unexpected tragedies happened in my life and I don’t want loose my friends and things in my life…as I so hate it….but it seem like I’m selfish
I try my best to cope with it~
Whatever what happened….I’m still me isn’t it?

~Losing Jenny~